WTFUCKKKKKKK, i haven’t posted in a while. forgot my email, buuuut i finally remembered ! yay, ANYWAYS. lately, shit shit shit shit has been eatin me alive. tears, arguments, sleepless nights. :/ its like a daily thing now. sighhhh.. why is it so hard to maintain just one great happy relationship. why do things have to go wrong ? i believe love is a very beautiful thing, until it goes wrong. but in that case, why does it have to go wrong ? but its our faults , right ? we’re the ones makin mistakes day by day, but we livin it up. cos tho the weather may be fucked up, it doesn’t rain forever. you get some you lose some. im just tired of having to put up with so much shit, its so frustrating, and ultimately ridiculous. who wants to be in a relationship if its all about fussin & fightin ? wellll, i guess thats the point OF a relationship. tho, its dumb.. thats just the way it works, and goes around. UGH, fuck life. nothings fair.
you keep saying this relationship is broken
but the relationship is perfect
cos it times to work it out
and i know i did you wrong
but baby come back home
cos without you here i cry
i cry in the rain
i cry in the rain
so nobody see the tears that i`m cryin
i cry in the rain
i cry in the rain
so nobody see the pain that i`m hiding
in the rain i cry
in the rain i cry
in the rain i cry cry cry
in the rain i cry
in the rain i cry
in the rain i cry cry
UGHH! this shit is so stupid. im fucking fed up. i caant even deal with this shit anymore. LEAVE YOU? whats gunnna hapen to us afterwards ? we’ll be like fucking strangers ? im so fucking confused & mad. my anger makes me wanna throw everything away. you know what ? you’re fucking right. why tell you ” we needa talk” with the intention on breaking up if everytime i see you its like a smile lights up on my face, right? but i reallly cant take this anymore. things are getting more complicated everyday that we’re by eachother’s side. & its the little dumb/ stupid things that gets us ticked off. we both made a promise we wouldnt leave. if it was a mutual, would it still apply ? FUCK THIS SHIT. im so tired of arguing EVERYgoddamnDAY. -_____________- fucking hate relationships. fuck you, fuck everything.
She’s probably somebody’s only light
Gotta shine tonight
Ooooh,
She’s gotta be somebody’s baby tonight
(2x)
I like the way she’s making me feel inside
I can’t deny she’s beautiful
She’s walking right and talking right
This girl is so fly
She’s just so unbelievable
But a girl like that would be
too far outta my league
She’s gotta be someone’s baby
Can’t be with me
She’s gotta be
(Chorus)
Oh what I get to say that
She is mine all mine
What if she’s not somebody’s baby?
Give me a sign
I’m hopeless, baby
Help me, baby
give me a sign
Baby I think
Crazy she’s too good for me
She can never be my baby
Why can’t i see
She’s gotta be
(Chorus)
Gotta be,
gotta be,
gotta be somebody’s only light
gotta shine tonight (6x)
make her mine tonight
I’m sorry ok? … The reason I’m always telling you to let it go is because every second, I feel like I’m no where close to being good enough for you & when you tell me all these negatives bout me it just makes me like … Wanna just cut to the chase for you. I know 9 months isn’t worth throwin away just because of some argument, but is it worth it if we’re constantly arguing about the same shit because one of us can’t learn? Yeah, that ‘one of us’ is me .. I’m sorry I can’t be what you expect me to be. I fuck up, i never listen,I’m hella clumsy, and I’m stubborn as fuck. But I’m just human. Being with you I feel like I have to me perfect or I’m not good enough for you. I for a fact don’t wanna let us go, but… I feel so low. Think about it, everytime we argue, it’s becos of me. When you’re smilin it’s cos of me yeah.. But when you’re crying, mad, sad.. It’s also cos of me. Don’t you think I’ve hurt you long enough?sigh.. I love you with everything I’ve got. I don’t know what I’d do without you, but at times letting go of something that makes you cry and hurts you all the time could be a benefit for you at some point. :’ (. I haven’t felt like this or cried this much in a while.. Idontknow what to do anymore.. I just wanna lock myself up in my room with tha music turned up real loud. Andrew, I love you… :’/
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Love - a wildly misunderstood although highly desirable malfunction of the heart which weakens the brain, causes eyes to sparkle, cheeks to glow, blood pressure to rise and the lips to pucker.
nine months down, forever to go.
damn, lookin back on all the memories we’ve had within these last nine months really brings tears to my eyes. babyy, you’re absolutely the best person i have ever known. when im down, you’re always there. i know i can count on you to put a smile on my face. who woulda thought we’d hit 9 months ? everyone had their little doubts bout us, we, ourselves, have had doubts. buut fuck it cos we’ve made it this farr and nothin is gunna drag us down. no one even knows all the shit we’ve been through, all the rough times that got us here. we’ve had a hell of a road gettting to this point, but the path is still coming. we’re not even close to being done yet. we’ve had the best of times & yet the worst. you’ve stuck with me through all the bullshit. & idk how id ever repay you. before these last nine months, i was guy hoppin. week to week, guy to guy. everything was like a game to me. nothing meant shit. guys were just like a picture frame. always there for the image but nothing more. every guy ended up being the same as the previous ones. thenn you came along.. you out of all people. who’d think we’d even end up together? i had no thought that in a million years id be with someone like you. when we first started off, i hated you. hated you with all my heart, i wished youd go die. buuut i guess hatred turned into love, because now i love you with alla my heart. we’ve made it nine months, buuuut this isn’t even the end. we still have a lifetime to go. we made a promise, and im so happy that we’ve both stuck to it. honestly.. i , myself, am surprised that i did. i love you, andy. with wayy more than i could offer. no one on this earth, would ever be able to compare to you. soo happy nine months, babe. i hope we last til the day after forever <3
e.s.t. eleven eighteen oh eight;
love, ladypuffiee’
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The ‘not-giving-a-fuck’ meter is as far into the red-zone as ever before.
yeah, life’s a mother fucking bitch. you think you caaan trust someone ? think again. not even someone you call “family” cos they all turn their shit around & stabb you. my life has officially dropped to the lowest level possible. -_________- kill me now, end of story.
love, lilz’
